My workout and diet have both been back on track these past few days. So that's something. I'm really committed to dialing everything in over the next few months and getting, "at my age", into the best shape my life.
Today I'll be doing battle with a 50 pound kettlebell. I'll be doing clean and presses, and mixing them with pullups, and swings and snatches, in the manner I described
here.
Today though, I'll end with some
Turkish Getups. And, for the first time in a long while, I'm gonna try my hand at the ol'
Renegade Rows.
Ow, preemptively.
In the loss column though, is my commitment to writing. I'm about, oh, 3000 words behind on NaNoWriMo already. Sigh. I
know that while I'm not a natural born author, nor am I the worst writer to ever walk the Earth. But I can't.get.anything.done.
It's discouraging, to say the least.
I read once that the more important a task is for you to complete, the more resistance you'll face. If that's true, me writing must be pretty damn important, which makes me feel all the worse for giving up so readily.
It's not even the
writing so much as what the constant abortion of my plans says about my character. It's a useful mirror, I guess, but I just think the reflection is ugly. "So do something about it, then," is the obvious answer.
I've been trying, and failing, for about 15 years now. Clearly, I'm not doing it right. I'm still looking for a piece to the puzzle that I'm not even sure exists.